There is always a catch.
I am missing out on some things and gaining on others. The past few days have been a merry-go-round. Over the days, I have been learning and much more importantly I am putting myself out. I am taking chances, I am taking guard, and I am being bold.
Today was a tough day. I had to face my damn suck result.
Sometimes, I am so open. I am in acceptance of what others say, what they tell. Sometimes, I just cannot. I think back to the time when there was a girl whose existence was air thin. I was that girl. No one would even realize I was there. And, I couldn't do much to make it otherwise. There was this girl and now, there is another.
I look at myself. I see the same face and yet it is so different from what I remember.
I like this growth. I like the way my hair looks these days or how I walk these days or how I dress. But, for the better reason, I like how I could talk, how I could say NO, or how I have learnt to say YES.
I opened myself to listen. I gave myself a chance and mostly I tried giving myself a chance. It looked easy. At least, not as hard as I thought I would be.
Today, I learnt to bring myself to an openness where I could embrace better things.
I learnt to let my views dance and yet give the stage to someone else.
It is a good feeling.
19 is a good year. I am growing.
And, so are my dreams.
