I have a thin patience. And, I am 19years old.
I actually don't necessarily have to be patient. These past few days have been big steps to an uncertain future.
Just when I thought, I have carved my way out of the hellish nightmare that I was in, I am pushed to see. I am pushed to check and try to pull it back.
There was a time when I wanted to escape. It seemed the most obvious route - quick and effortless. Now, on a afternoon, I am sitting with a typical restless brain. I question myself, I question my decisions, and then there is always that fear of not been enough.
I am realizing. It seems just yesterday when I wept late at night, holding the pillow close, trying to rest my problems into the universe and spilt it out.
Now, I see clearly. I don't have to be perfect. I don't even have to be right. All the time.
Not everyone has to have my perspective. And, I don't have to share everyone else's perspective.
In the end, I have to live with myself and not others.
I am good at Math. I love Physics. I suck at Biology. I like Surfing internet.
I cannot stand uncertainty and negativity.
I love Pink, Black and Grey.
I love green tea, beaches, water, ice creams.
I enjoy laughing out loud.
I enjoy CSI Miami especially David Caruso.
I crush on Jeff Corwin, Johnny Depp, Orlando Bloom, and Cameron Diaz.
I miss the days when I was in love. I love Christmas. I love rain.
I love spring dresses same goes to what they called Vintage.
I am 160cm, 40 kilograms i guess,
right handed, spectacled contact lens sometimes, with a curious face.
I could listen to Taylor Swift && Miranda Cosgrove all day long.
And, I like watching, hang around with friends and shopping.
I think I sing well but I don't. I think I dance well but I don't.
All this and more, they make me.It is a crazy world. And, I am crazy in my own way.
And that is alright.
